To My Insecurities
To my Insecurities, I just wanted to let you know that I love you. That I apologize that most of your life, people have hurt you. Being raised in a post 9/11 era, though I didn't immigrate to this country, my body has been treated as foreign. By both white and brown communities. I didn't grow up having friends, didn't go to sleepovers, high school parties, or tailgates. I sat alone and created worlds in which my body was not discarded like an empty plastic cup, but I was queen. That I walked into rooms and everyone would turn heads. In which if someone was policed, communities came to the rescue. You see, I wasn't born in the wrong body, I was born in a world that is scared of what I am capable of. Now that I have obtained community and western forms of "success", I am afraid. I am afraid of losing my loved ones. To lose connection. That at some point they will find better people and leave me. ...