Home
I can never really find home. I am sort of never enough for any space not brown enough not queer or trans enough and not fuckable I have not unpacked my bags since I was 16 years old Since my parents took me to my first round of conversion therapy trying to pray away my sickening disease telling me that disgusting that I deserve to be homeless. What I thought was home, blossoming tree surrounding 1088 sq ft haven, became a source of emotional abuse toxicity like a red rose rotting or bread going moldy. So from then on out I have sort of decided that I should just be on my own; try to be close to people, but never close enough that they would miss me be vulnerable, but never enough to display that I am in pain or display too much to so that people don't associate with me. It has been a hard six years since then, sleepless nights, self-depreciation, spontaneous Dunkin Donut Runs and researching the perfect tiny house community. So right now I am feeling everythi...