Yasmine Tadross

This is me Someone who tries too hard who exhausts herself and does not see the beauty in her This is me at my happiest and most frightful Trying so hard to contemplate all that she sees Releasing the fluid identity to the entire world Not yet realise all that she has Composed, But when you look the other way I am exhausted and suffocated Though I carry these characteristics around, My truth is reborn each and every day My fluidity keeps me going Even when I can't leave the sheets It keeps me fighting for eradication and justice so that all my Queer and Trans siblings will be liberated and set free To be someone that my community and loved ones can be proud of This is me One who carries the internal insecurities and oppressions Each and every day as I leave spaces Though I am working on it I am working on it

I was born in a sea of whiteness walking into spaces; I was the brown elephant in the room no time to play around with a ball 5 years felt like five months I would look around so much beauty from the crystal blue oceans to the perfectly aligned Palm Trees that weren't even ours from the gorgeous two story houses with the nice front porch to the pretty white kids playing around on perfectly trimmed green grass Walking through, society seems so perfect Newport Beach, A typical white suburbia where you're surrounded by so many scenic views yet you feel so alone in it A place where you outsource your healing rather than finding a community that would bring empathy rather than acknowledge your skin color they chose to avoid it or profile you though I left, I hoped from one bubble to another But I found a community through it that allow me to feel however I want to feel and to give me the power to choose my own autonomy I now grow to 20 years and still managing