When your 16 and complicated
When I was 16, I came out as gay I shouted to the world, except for my family I felt like I was going to fulfill the gay dream Walk around publicly in rainbow glitter While singing "Peacock" by Katy Perry I am validating my white boy fetish thoughts and to proclaim a self that I thought suited me at the time Until, my brother found out that I told everyone, but him To be honest, I was planning on telling him, but I thought he wouldn't love me Eventually, I was forced to tell my parents They ultimately tried to cure me Both thought I was a disease A disgrace to the all mighty god I was sick, the devil got me I went through hell going to conversion therapy with the priest he shames me with love blaming my parents, stating it was there doing Putting my hand on my forehand telling whoever god he is looking up to I became enraged for two years Until today, I still think religious people view me as a medical patient only to be saved and deny the fact that