To all the Straight Men on OkCupid!

To all the straight cis guys who liked me,
congratulations, you are not actually straight!!!
There is a possibility that you may have an interest in women who don't have vaginas
Gold Star for you!
But here is a catch,
I was chatting with this guy
25 young, brown, perfectly trimmed beard and eyebrows; works at a tech firm and lives in Brooklyn
sounds a little like gentrification right?
But I like the hipster type, the thick frame glasses, and your fair trade
coffee, it just turns me on
but we were talking and he discusses how rim jobs and body embracing turns him on
he asked me if I could send him photos of me more dressed up
because the more feminine I am, the better
he wanted my midnight blue lipstick kisses all over him
I thought well, I could avoid the kissing part and just write "I am not a fetish all over your forehead"

Honey, note this, these clothes and makeup is just a facade
When I take them all off and you see the disconnected hairy brown body, no one actually wants to protect
because I am told that I am worthy of my own violence
that my lifespan does not go beyond 30
why Jojo striker, Danika Dodds, and other trans people of color's identities
are only limited to five bloody slashes on the back and a gunshot to the head

However, I stand in solidarity with you,
As both of us who are brown bodies in a post 9/11 world
Our skin color alone deems us not lovable
when attaching religious, queer, trans, undocumented, and other marginalized layers
You are either seen as a predator or just non-existent

So to Dating Sites, the bachelor/ the bachelorette, and Cinema
Don't Capitalize loneliness and call it finding love
The more we all can say that we are lonely,
the less we can feel that

Location: Jersey City, NJ, USA

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