Loss

It seems like the one emotion that I always feel is loss.
Regardless, of positive, negative, melancholy, apathy, joy,
I feel like everything is incomplete
Whether I am denied my humanity
black trans women being murdered left and right
people without homes being put in jail because we don't like the site of them
poor people being denied access to food, water, and shelter
everyone is experiencing loss

we seem to like to blame the individuals for their lack of humanity
"there are homeless shelters everywhere, you should not be on the street"
like as if these places are fully funded and except all people, they are only meant to keep people overnight.
"Maybe you are called a faggot is because the way that you are dressed, you are just asking for it"
Well if people stopped putting their insecurities on girls like me, we wouldn't be in this fucking mess.
"Maybe if you got a job, you wouldn't be poor."
Well no shit Sherlock, they probably have thought of that too.
It is easier to blame individuals for their own problems because it prevents us from looking at how complicated these situations are
Whether it is transphobia, racism, globalization, gentrification, classism, sexism, and all the isms that are at work in every facet of our lives that prevent us from seeing our full humanity

I am done fighting the good fight
Maybe it is my fault
The world does not want us to exist
We were never meant for this place
Let's go to Mars!
Where all the others can go and create a better world for us
and watch all the garbage people deteriorate

But that is not what I want,
maybe the harder we unpack ourselves
and actually understand that we have all been failed,
maybe we wouldn't feel loss






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